everyday after her passing brings new revelations.
almost two years on and i'm still learning things about her and myself and our lives together and apart.
it's painful. and i still cry myself to sleep regularly.
but it's gonna be okay.
and you've got to believe that.
and many of you might be a lot stronger than i'll ever be and than i was.
but regardless. don't let yourself fall apart the way i did.
i let myself break and fall and tumble. i let it weigh me down for so long i can't remember what it's like to love and not be afraid of the loss.
but i'm telling you now, you will want to love again. you will regain that passion for affections.
so don't let yourself fall apart because it might crush you completely.
if you're broken, you can be fixed
but the point is to keep fighting.
because i've learnt the hard way that the worst thing you can do when you're exhausted is to stop fighting and let go; when you actually start fighting again, when you actually want to fight it, you'll be so far down you won't know where to begin.
keep breathing; keep fighting; keep loving.